My whole life, well at least from the start of when I understood diversity, and difference, I have always appreciated it. I have always been one to be passionate about diversity and celebrate differences. We do this thing at OU called diversity training and most people don’t really enjoy it but I absolutely love it. Basically you talk about sex, gender, race, and socioeconomic status. You get the chance to talk about things that no one usually wants to talk about or point out; it’s important to recognize and understand things we at first don’t know much about. Lately however, I have really found out that understanding and facilitating diversity is a lot harder than just appreciating it, and saying I love it. In my committee, Human Diversity, for SGA, we have a lot of diverse people this semester which is great and I am so glad because therefore we will have much more of a well rounded opinion as a committee. However, during our first meeting, one of our members discussed how they are transgender and would’ve really appreciated if we had discussed our preferred pronouns because they were important. They were so right, but the idea hadn’t even crossed my mind. I am excited to be a member on this committee this semester, however, I feel as if I almost don’t have a good opinion or good outlook because I don’t feel very diverse. I am white, and middle class. Constantly during our meeting I was trying to understand and absorb their opinions ad experiences, but it was really hard. And I do not mean that in any bad way whatsoever, but I want to understand so bad but I just feel like I can’t. I feel like before college I complained a lot, I complained about being a girl and how hard it was to face sexism, how much it sucks to not have equal pay, and how derogatory it is to walk around and get cat called. Of course all these things truly do suck, and are extremely problematic issues, but now, I just feel like some of my concerns and complaints are so obsolete compared to those of others. In our meeting I felt like I constantly had to be checking my privilege and being careful of what I say and how I say it. This one guy in our committee is from Peru and he said that in Latin America it is not very common for him to receive bias, or racism, because it is different in their culture. He said it isn’t a big deal, and most people are just respectful of one another. I don’t really know what to think of all of it. Is it better for us here in the states to talk about these problems all the time and try to find ways to explicitly erase them? Or is it better to not focus on them so much, and maybe people would just become more accepting? I cant decide, or even if there is a right or wrong option. I guess our cultures are just so very different, which is honestly really eye opening and interesting to me. So as of right now, I guess I just wrote because I am conflicted, and confused. For the first time in my life I am having a really hard time understanding diversity, and how I can not only support it and be in favor of all of it, but also understand more. That might sound completely shallow and thats not a way I am meaning it in at all. It’s just hard. It is challenging to use pronouns, and it is challenging to understand someones prospective from experiences that I will never live. But in the end, I am excited to challenge myself. I am excited to learn proper usage of pronouns, and learn more about different experiences depending on ethnicity. I am racist, bias, sexist. We all are. I don’t want to be any of those things and honestly I hate writing it but we all need to admit it. We all grow up in a culture and society that implements these things in our everyday life. I don’t think it is our fault, but I do think it is our fault when we notice it and don’t attempt to fix it. I guess in conclusion sometimes actually understanding something is a lot harder than just accepting it.